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Well, my dear friend. I can't take it anymore. At least for now. The last couple of weeks, or even months, were pretty damn hard on me (giggity) emotionally, of course. From finals to life to people to now college exam to see if I'm qualified to get accepted or not. That exam, was the last straw that broke the camel's back. Or my back. It was hard, 50 choose question, in one hour with a lot and I mean a LOT of English, here is an example: (https://cloud.esmailelbob.xyz/s/jXJn2NtYnjEHFcx/preview) And the thing is, it was not only me who was mad about it, almost all of us were mad at it. It's hard exam, and it's not like we got 70%, most of us got ~95% in graduation, so we know what we fucking studied, and yet we all said damn son this exam is harder than Johnny Sins's dick. While going back to home yesterday, I was about to cry because of that exam. I hear you, saying okay talk to somebody, and you are right except it won't work, you see months ago, someone started a campaign about better and unlimited internet, just good internet, did not talk about politics or anything and that guy who started the campaign got arrested following other people till the whole campaign gave up (Yes it's real: https://nitter.esmailelbob.xyz/Abdelra44708184/status/1545920759142715392) now imagine with me fellow reader what will happen when almost all students demand their right to get fair exam? I will leave it up to your imagination. So, talking will solve nothing. And that's why I just can't take it anymore, I mean sure results did not come out yet, and will keep you updated and trust me I keep praying every minute in fear and stress, and hopefully I get accepted, but god forbid if I did not get accepted, I will get in another big depression phase/episode, and I will stop posting for a while or even try to suicide again. So until the results come out I'm in fear and stress and let's hope I pass because I think I have never been in stress like this before and not to worry about the server I will keep monitoring it and fixing it, it might not be as fast as I used to be (thanks for my depression and lost hope) but yeah I will be there, at the end the server is almost like last thing that left for me

NOTE: people already started to take action and post hashtags on twitter and facebook: * https://www.facebook.com/pfbid034u5Gu9WQrj7yQxtJQha22hTfxVCai3pHdBUbjx3Gqk9VxNjwnYsWNo1gKVaR4vB7l * https://www.facebook.com/pfbid02wGE9dL4JKefWqvoe111zgPSnJUQLHBTCgzaGYLiJVPkWsT95N3hBk1xkDMwsTpG6l * https://twitter.com/search?q=%D8%AD%D9%84%D9%85%20%D8%B3%D9%86%D9%8A%D9%86%20%D8%A8%D9%8A%D8%B6%D9%8A%D8%B9%20%D8%B8%D9%84%D9%85&src=typeahead_click&f=live (Yes, posts are in Arabic. Who would have thought?)

PS: sorry for my crappy English, I'm not in the mood to proofread.

UPDATE – Fri, Sept 9, 22: If you wonder where are the results, it's already the end of day. Well, according to people here that they have withdrawn failed peoples' results and my results did not come out, so this gives me a big vibe that I failed. They said that they will look into it and see if they will make pass score from 50% instead of 60% or re-take the exam, I'm not sure yet, again will keep you on updates and let's just hope that whatever actions they will take, it helps me to get accepted in college.

UPDATE – Sun, Sept 11, 22: Results just came out now, and I have failed, so yup...

UPDATE – Tue, Sept 13, 22: Well, still failed. But the good news is there is another path, actually. Not really fun path, but at least there is another path, so I plan on taking it. So wish me luck!

And I finally know why I failed in that exam, it's because the exam was from new subjects that we did not study, so yup. What I find weird is people who graduated with high numbers like 92% or 95% did not pass the exam and people with lower numbers like 85% did pass the exam, some might say luck, but I'm damn sure (or alleged) they did it on purpose because after you pass that exam there is another thing and that the college will say which minimum number required to get accepted because it's not about the college test only. So as you might have guessed, people with lower graduation numbers who passed in the exam they are most likely won't get accepted in the collage. It's still unclear why the college did it and not want to accept new students, like what are the benefits. But I'm sure everything will be clear someday~~

#thoughts